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Staying Afloat

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I found god along time ago, but that story is for another time.

I don’t right these blogs just to talk or get sympathy. I write them to inspire. I’ve been through a lot in my life time.

I don’t make excuses for why I am the way I am.

It’s not just because of my mom and dad.

Or the shitty things I went through.

In the back of my mind I always knew who I was, even when I was lost.

I still get lost.

I belittle myself. I’ve let people talk down on me. The truth is I need to be more significant.

For awhile I was feeling like I didn’t have a body. This is hard to explain, but I will try.

I would wake up in the morning to get my daughter ready for school and I literally just felt like I was a head on a body.

Like I didn’t recognize that I had hands. Arms. Feet. Legs. Stomach. Etc.

I was numb. I still have my days but not as current as before.

Like I said it sounds weird, but it felt like I was just floating through life.

But why float when I can be known.

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I’m a mess, a loving, caring, working, try to put my makeup on everyday, always smiling or to exhausted to function, mess. But it’s okay I wouldn’t change it for the world. Follow my journey, you and I will figure things out together!

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  1. gosh! touched.
    great work! i’ll be on toes for your work!
    i hope you like my musings , i believe we might conclude with a similar perspective.
    hehe…^-^

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  2. You know what this made me realize, that we aren’t the sums of our past. We can choose to take or leave whatever we want. You’ve proven that. I don’t want to float, I want to live and you have inspired me to do just that. Thank you.

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  3. “In the back of my mind I always knew who I was, even when I was lost.” What of the greatest lines I’ve read in awhile. I think many times we are scared to be that person… many reasons (your other posts talk about how that, how life can push that person away) for that.

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